I can't figure out where I fit. I'm lost in my own little world and sometimes I wonder if I should just stay there. Most days, I just want to run away from everything. My family, my friends, commitment, failing, so many things I'm afraid of. I want it all to disappear. Hell, I want to disappear. I want to be unattached, free to roam. I want to travel the world and find where I belong. I don't want to pretend I'm happy. I want to do what I want, when I want, without being reprimanded. I don't want to have to force myself to be nice and watch what I say to protect other people's feelings. I'm tired of being shunned for speaking my mind.

I want to lay on a beach somewhere and pretend that nothing else exists.

I want to be honest with you, because it's what you deserve. I want to believe what I say just like you do. I want to be able to sleep through the night for once. I want someone to actually mean it when they say they understand. I don't want sympathy. I don't want pity.

I don't want to be the mess that I actually am. I don't want to hurt anyone, but that doesn't mean I should hurt myself. Happiness isn't something that can be sacrificed for someone else.

I don't know what to do.

Last day of exams.

SUMMER SUMMER SUMMER TIMEE.

ALSO. HOLY MOLEY! VVVVVV Dawwwwwwwwwh.

There is a place where the sidewalk ends.

Listen to the mustn'ts, child, listen to the don'ts.

Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts.

Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me.

Anything can happen child. Anything can be.

By far, my most favorite poem of all time. Someone buy me the whole collection of Shel Silverstein books, please and thank you.

Okay, so.

This may be a tad excessive, whoopsie!

LMFAO. My child.

Part deux.

I'm continuing my last post, kthx.

(619): He asked what my name was on facebook chat. IT SAYS RIGHT THERE. i will never be drunk enough for this guy.

(480): Too bad my thesis topic isn't "defining a hot mess: a study in drinking, smoking and other bad life decisions."

(914): I'm stoned and have been watching so many cartoons that I changed the channel and real people were on, and it scared me

(978): bring money and cleavage

(740): So how many shot glasses of coffee grounds make a pot?

(914): i realized our last day of finals is on cinco de mayo....it's god's way of saying drink ridiculous amounts of tequila and wear sombreros

(651): The lack of pants and amount of productivity in my life right now is amazing.

(903): Just got back from my 9:00 am class to find my roommate soaking her lifesaver gummies in vodka so she can have them for a snack in class later.

(720): so i just calculated it and i would need to score 150% on this final to pass

(402): You are two creepy Justin Bieber quotes away from me not talking to you for the rest of the day (1-402): If I had a pelvic thrust emoticon, I would use it

(402): your ability to fuck hot guys even when you go out in sweats amazes me

(804): when i was ordering pizza, the guy muffled the phone but i could clearly hear him say "its that drunk bitch again"

(585): You tried to tip the paramedic for finding you.

(215): We should never set our expectations higher than pizza bagels cause then our night is bound to get better

(303): just found the land before time on youtube... I'm so fucked for finals

(613): i just went to use the bathroom this morning and I couldn't because there was someone puking in every stall. i'm going to miss the dorms this summer

(773): Defiantly just threw away our yearly bottle collection in front of the campus tour. The school should pay me for recruitment

Fuck yes, JMU.

I'm not sad

That this semester of college can be summed up in textsfromlastnight.

(914): Just used a champagne bottle to outline a trigonometric circle for math 104.. should i give up on life now or later?

(413): this kid just offered me adderall in exchange for my meal points. college at its finest

(770): finally cleaned my dorm for the first time all year. bleach is awesome.

(541): This girl is drinking wine and watching grey's anatomy in the library during finals week. I hate comm majors.

(619): Is there a zoo near here? I need to see some penguins like right now.. (1-619): I am not bailing you of of jail

(203): I'm out of vodka and money. My semester is officially over. The way I see it, my finals are just forms I need to fill out in order to leave campus.

(231): You kept whispering, no one does me like Jimmy Johns does me.

(401): In debating whether or not it's worth getting out of bed and walking 5 feet down the hallway to go to the bathroom before I puke

(313): Yeaaah, so cabbie laughed at me, and said, "rough nite? Let me find you some music" . apparently OPP is the appropriate ride of shame soundtrack.

(570): Every single piece. I examined every single square inch of this peanut butter and jelly sandwich. and fell in love with every inch. that high.

(732): i spelled "betch" that way on purpose, don't question my abilities as a drunk texter

(702): You need Jesus. Or a midol and a snickers. Whichever.

(919): Is it bad that on the course evaluation it said "do you normally try harder than other students in class" and i circled "absolutely false"?

(216): Changing from sweatpants to jeans at 3 in the afternoon makes the day seem so much more productive than it actually was.

(610): it only took me 1 hour to write 8 pages. i'm never doing school work without adderall ever again.

(215): i got kicked out of Barns and Nobles cuz i put all the bibles in the fiction section

(607): you need to leave class get on facebook and start untagging IMMEDIATELY

(612): maybe i'll see you again later :) (774): I'd rather shit a knife.

We did work this year, guys. We did work.

I look illegal!

I found this HILARIOUS. Okay, so basically. Arizona is trying to pass a new immigration law allowing police to stop people that they suspect are in the country illegally, just by looking at them.

Now, Governor Jan Brewer is in favor of the law. Really in favor. They're saying support for the bill is strong. The governor's office has received some 5,000 calls in support of the law, and roughly 2,000 against. Senator Pearce threw in that at least 90% of the calls his office has received are totes in favor.

Two lawsuits have been filed against it already by the National Coalition of Latino Clergy and Christian Leaders, basically because this totally condones racial profiling. WELL, NO SHIT. Look, I think if you're going to come to this county, do it legally. Of course. But pulling over someone that's Hispanic just because there's a possibility of them being here illegally is ridiculous. What about Hispanic police officers? That's quite an awkward situation for them. What the fuck, Arizona? Really?

I mean, how do you decide that someone "looks" illegal. Cause they're driving a shitty truck? Or they dressed for construction work or some shit? It's complete shit. There's no way to enforce that law without racial profiling. Governor Brewer says that AZ POS, which is a police thing in Arizona, is training their officers on how to recognize illegal aliens. Right, Jan. Right.

So, a group of protesters are outside of Wrigley Field because the Diamondbacks are playing up there today. These protesters are comparing Arizona government to Nazis and the KKK. I don't know if it's necessarily THAT intense, but come on people. Shakira is even in on this! She said she was planning on meeting with the mayor of Phoenix to discuss how the city would stop the enforcement of the law. This whole thing is not right. And when you pull over someone that ISN'T illegal, it's fucked. It's like when Japan bombed Pearl Harbor and they had all of the Japanese immigrants living in those makeshift neighborhood things. It's not like they were all planning to bomb the US. This bill is right on the outskirts of being unconstitutional. Not cool.

Along with this, some fucking prick congressman from California says he would totally deport children of illegal aliens. Mr. Duncan Hunter, may I present you with the Douche Kayak of the Year Award?

Sure, let's blame the children for what choices their parents have made for them. Innocent kids, who have no control over where they live or what their parents do. Apparently, this doucher supports House Resolution 1868, which calls for the elimination of automatic citizenship for children born to illegal aliens in the United States. Thankfully, the resolution stalled in the House and never passed. Dude says, and I quote, "It takes more than being born here to be an American- it's about what's in the soul." Well, apparently our souls are black pits of despair. At least yours is, dick.

On top of that, Obama declared a state of emergency today! An 120 mile long oil spill is supposed to hit the mouth of the Mississippi River within a few hours. VANDERFUL. US has all the luck. Is this karma? Probably.

Besides all of this mess, England is having their final debate tonight( Hi, Alex :])! I'm pretty jealous of the way debates work over there. You know, in the US our debates are pretty gay. There's really no actual discussion between candidates. Someone asks a question and each candidate can answer, yadayadayada. It's like a question and answer session! But, the UK does it right. I wish I could find better coverage of it on television, I'd be absolutely enthralled. Consider yourself lucky, Alex. I'd love to be watching.

That's all for now, Kbye!