Too deep now to swim against the current.

I was actually doing well with the no stress thing. Well, that is no more. I'm not sure what it is about me, but every single time I go home for a weekend, I come back and immediately fall into a funk. I'm not motivated at all.

I am freaking the fuck out inside though. This has been the year from hell, and everything has suffered because of it. Every time I seem to pick myself back up, something else happens and I get knocked down again.

My GPA sucks. I don't know what happened to it. I'm scared shitless that I'll lose my scholarship. If I do, I have no idea what's going to happen to my education at JMU.

I'm disappointed in myself. I don't want to fail at life. I don't want anyone to think I can't handle myself here, because I can. I've just got a lot working against me.

I'm scared.